So here it goes - I want to change my life. It has finally come to a head and things are really starting to fall apart. I live in South Wales, in the UK. I have pushed the limits of my life and gambled with my health and my happiness. I now need to sort my life out as I am left with nothing. This blog is my journey and I would like you to join me in this journey into self improvement - this is my last chance.
Sunday, 10 June 2012
Sunday Bloody Sunday
hello, it's Sunday morning and I'm feeling a little bit more positive than yesterday ( so far ). My son woke me up at 7.00am this morning and that's becoming quite a bit of a culture shock to say the least. Just checked my emails and the dating site have thrown me a few matches. It's the same site where I met Harding but I really don't know whats going on with her so I should probably keep my options open ( positive ).
Going out for a birthday lunch with my mum and my son at half 12, pretty sad really but it'll do - turns out I'm working on my birthday anyway! Just sent a icebreaker to a girl form ponty, another positive move to start the day off. My sons driving me mad with the Xbox at the moment. Going to have to move and get him changed for lunch and finish this entry a little later.
Hello, again, lunch over and I'm back online, my mums just taken my son down the beach so I have a little time to myself ( I love him to bits but he's like a nutter - he never stops ). Still no contact from Harding ( the girl in my phone ) but that's starting to not really surprise me, gotta stay positive though. Sent a few icebreakers out to new girls but no reply, guess that's ok though - I'm not really sure how well that site works. Basically, it's a free dating site.
I've got a lot of work to do tonight if it's at all possible. Might have to spend some time booking some tickets for Oakwood with my mum. Oakwoods a local theme park with rides and all that. It's been two weeks since I started out on this journey properly. What's the verdict? Well it's been up ad down really - the first week I was excellent, the second week has be a struggle to remain positive. It's probably no coincidence that Harding buggered off to Paris for the second week, no coincidence at all really! If I find some way around this girl maybe things will go a little smoother - the problem is entering a new relationship is supposed to be part of this journey!
It's hard to stop talking today - I'm feeling that f**ked up with things and I'm so up and down. Constantly looking at my left hand to remind myself to remain positive, things will get better, THINGS WILL GET BETTER. It's only 3.33 in the afternoon and I feel like I can ramble on all day. Going cut this post short again cos I've got a bit of work to do before my son gets back ( then I've got to drive him home ). Speak to you later, stay positive!
Thought you got rid of me eh? Not so lucky. Well it's 10.30 at night and harding's back in the country ( well her mobile's online anyway. No contact whatsoever so I'm unsure whether she got that awful message or not. She's probably tired - at least I hope so. Either way I'm staying positive. This really is it for today, I'm signing off. I hope tomorrow brings some joy but if it does not I am determined to stay on track!
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