She's Back And I'm Happy

Yeah, damn right - 2.00 in the morning she got back and took the time to send me a message saying she found the message funny. FUNNY for f**ks sake! And I'd been worrying all week about that message, come on. I feel like I've been lifted to new heights and god damn it I feel positive. Right, now I've got to make some sort of move - come on boy, pull your finger out.

So how the hell do I do this without scaring her off? First things first I've got to send her a message today, something witty in reply, I have an idea so I'm about to send it. Yep, just sent it - not to bad either if I do say so myself. OK, feeling really positive here - don't even have to write anything on my hand today. I've been for a run today straight after I read her message and I really enjoyed it - bit of a tight chest again though.

The England match is on today and it's my birthday tomorrow so I think I'll have more than a few beers tonight. After all, I am working tomorrow on my birthday. My chest is starting to piss me off a bit - back on the false fag again tonight. Hell, I don't really know what to say here today as the contact from the girl in my phone has given me such a boost I don't know what to do with myself. I'm going to leave things for a while and get to work on my new website, will speak again later.

Well - this has cocked things up! Started drinking to watch the match and forgot to publish my post - it's now the 12th ( My birthday ). After the match I contacted harding and spoke with her ( messaged ) for hours til she fell asleep. Got on really well but I was half cut so I hope I did not go to far - she seemed to be enjoying the conversation. Forced myself to be positive yesterday and look at the outcome, things really went well for me and I love the contact with her.

So today is my birthday! 37, pretty old now. This is why I needed to change my life now. This is also why I need to make this work with harding. Have to remain positive and upbeat today regardless of the feeling of getting old. I went for a run with a hangover this morning, made the run ok but now I ache from head to foot. Still it will benefit me in the long run and will help me sleep in the car at work tonight.

That's right, I'm working on my birthday! Got to keep the money coming in as I owe one of my mates £180 quid. I've also got a stag night in mid Wales coming up which is going to cost me a pretty penny. May get some cash off my parents today though, birthday and all that.

So tired  at the moment - that runs wiped me out completely. Gotta pop out to get some lunch and stuff so I'll finish this post later.

It's now 3.38 in the afternoon and I'm completely shagged out. It's hard to feel positive when I feel so damn tired. Desperately been trying to remain awake so that I can sleep in the car tonight. Got the red POS printed on my left hand again - have not looked at it much today as I've been to tired to notice. Done a bit of work on the website but not to much - need to make up for this tomorrow.

No contact from harding yet but that's ok - I wonder if facebook has notified her it's my birthday, best not to open that can of worms mate! If she does not get in touch I will contact her a bit later on tonight. Time to wrap this double post up, I'm in need of a smoke and a coffee. Going to stay positive though and live in hope that I didn't go to far last night. See you tomorrow.