Hangover

Well I'm pretty shagged out due to the amount of vodka consumed last night. Ridiculous really but what can you do? Practice wasn't to bad but hell am I regretting drinking now - can't even believe I managed to turn the laptop  on and type. Sent a message to harding about 1am this morning - don't really know if that was a good idea or not. I was rambling on about her in practice last night and now I'm pretty embarrassed ( really embarrassed actually ). She hasn't replied to my message and now I'm paranoid shes met someone else - what is wrong with me, if she has I still have to remain positive and trudge on.

Got to give myself an injection of positive stuff today - feeling a little down here and that's no good. I just stumbled across this website and decided to post what they have said:

acronym: PABs  • noun : The feelings of uselessness, embarrassment, and general depression that accompany a hangover.  Typically linked to blackoutdrinking.


Explains a lot really doesn't it? I am feeling all these things this morning and I'm not happy about it. The article also carries on with..........


The topic of Post Alcohol Blues (PABs) has come up frequently in previous articles.  While vomiting, headaches, and lethargy are the prime physicalcharacteristics of a hangover, PABs constitute the hellish mental and emotional symptoms.  Typical thoughts during PABs include: “Why does everyone hate me?”, “I’m never drinking again.”, and “What is the point of it all anyways?”  The emotional holocaust created by PABs can get to be quite ridiculous.  You may find yourself embarrassed to answer phone calls from your friends, unable to make eye contact, or crying over your cat that died in elementary school.


That is so well written and so true isn't it? 


It's 3.38 in the afternoon now and I've just returned from a sober band practice. My son's due to be dropped off any minute by my ex-wife ( the cow! ). harding still hasn't contacted me so I'm actually thoroughly pissed off - I even had a drunken conversation with band members last night about her, am I starting to look like a bit of a fool? my sons here with me tonight so he should take my mind off things - a little nutter. 


Constantly forgetting to feel positive today - not good really. I think it has something to do with the alcohol in my system which is making me a little depressed. I think it's harding getting to me a little. Having trouble remembering how to feel positive here. I think I'm going to have to resort to printing POS on my hand again today, see if it helps. 


Well I forgot to write POS on my hand but I didn't need it. We got back in contact and I'm feeling good - amazing what a girl can do for you. It's 11.05 at night and I'm in the middle of talking to her now. Found out a lot more about her tonight, turns out shes been as unlucky in love as I have been. Seems a lovely girl and I now feel a bit of a twat for being a dick all day - must stay positive through every minute of the day. Gonna call it a day now as I've had enough today and I'm mentally and physically exhausted, good night all!