Hi, late start today as I've had a bit to do, it's 5.05pm here. Got up and sent a few messages to harding then went straight out for a run ( which turned out alright considering I drank a bit if beer last night ). Last night! I think we should start there first. Well it happened, harding invited me up to her house to drink wine and eat chinese food. And what did I do? I said my car was in the garage - I jibbed out completely!
Why did I do this? I don't really know, I feel a bit of a prat today though. I needed more time to sort my head out and prepare. If I knew a week or two in advance I could turn up and sell myself much better. Sounds absolutely ridiculous doesn't it, I waited and worked towards this and when it finally came I completely f**ked it up. I sent a few messages last night apologizing and throwing compliments her way but I really think I've cocked up here. Her exact words were 'I could do with some good company tomorrow night'. I know, I know - I'm a complete idiot. She seemed a little down-hearted afterwards and I'm not really surprised. I messaged her this morning and she replied twice. I said I was going to bombard her with compliments as way of an apology for not being able to get to Milford. This was the first message compliment I sent her, and I quote:
'Alright, it's about one a clock so I'll start from here - the only reason that bird is doing shite behind your back and then lying about it is because she's jealous, jealous about the fact that your probably about 10 times better looking than her and a nicer person. She probably has to paint her face in a ton of makeup every morning whereas you need none to look that good. Compliment No. 1 out of the way!'
There has been no response to this message yet but she could well be out shopping or with the family - I really don't know but I have an awful feeling I really have messed this up. As you can imagine it's been pretty hard to stay positive today after all this but I'm not doing to bad - just remembered I have not written POS on my left hand today so I'm about to do it now. Done!
Man I wish she would reply, if she doesn't I will have to try sending her another compliment tonight about 7, after all she's supposed to be in tonight eating chinese and drinking a bottle of wine ( and I'm the twat that is supposed to be sitting next to her - idiot, idiot, idiot! I've bought a couple of bottles of red wine to drink as I talk to her tonight but to be honest I'm beginning to think she might go elsewhere after my ridiculous snub. The whole point of this blog was to change my life and grab these types of opportunities with both hands and what have I done - completely the opposite. God help me I hope I get to talk to her tonight.
ITS SUNDAY and I messed up the post for yesterday - forgot to hit publish! There is a reason for this - harding. Yep, harding got hold of me and we talked until the early hours of the morning and I feel pretty good about things. I apologized and was truthful about why I could not turn up last night and she was great about it - she probably appreciated the honesty. The only thing is that I told her I could get a free ipod for her son while I can't! I felt guilty so it's the least I can do and shes really helping me turn my life round! But it's gonna cost me at least £80!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not good but I should of met her last night - it's my own fault. Anyway, we've agreed to meet in carmarthen and it seems pretty cool ( I'm already shitting myself and I must run more often to get more in shape! ). She's already messaged me this morning and I have replied, back to the waiting game but hell I'm one happy boy today.
Hey guys, it's 9.35 at night and Holland are about to go out of the Euros at the group stage. Me and harding have been in contact for most of the day again, this time trying to decide where to meet. We ( or she ) has decided on a roadside roadhouse in Whitland. I'm starting to get a little nervous about meeting her so I'm going to have to do some extra positivity exercises and quick. I talk to her all the time online but what the hell happens when we meet, will I freeze? Fuck I hope not!!
So it looks like it's all guns blazing for me - shit or bust, win or lose! I hope to hell she takes to me and I don't freeze up. Positive thoughts mate, positive thoughts. See you tomorrow!
ITS SUNDAY and I messed up the post for yesterday - forgot to hit publish! There is a reason for this - harding. Yep, harding got hold of me and we talked until the early hours of the morning and I feel pretty good about things. I apologized and was truthful about why I could not turn up last night and she was great about it - she probably appreciated the honesty. The only thing is that I told her I could get a free ipod for her son while I can't! I felt guilty so it's the least I can do and shes really helping me turn my life round! But it's gonna cost me at least £80!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not good but I should of met her last night - it's my own fault. Anyway, we've agreed to meet in carmarthen and it seems pretty cool ( I'm already shitting myself and I must run more often to get more in shape! ). She's already messaged me this morning and I have replied, back to the waiting game but hell I'm one happy boy today.
Hey guys, it's 9.35 at night and Holland are about to go out of the Euros at the group stage. Me and harding have been in contact for most of the day again, this time trying to decide where to meet. We ( or she ) has decided on a roadside roadhouse in Whitland. I'm starting to get a little nervous about meeting her so I'm going to have to do some extra positivity exercises and quick. I talk to her all the time online but what the hell happens when we meet, will I freeze? Fuck I hope not!!
So it looks like it's all guns blazing for me - shit or bust, win or lose! I hope to hell she takes to me and I don't freeze up. Positive thoughts mate, positive thoughts. See you tomorrow!
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