That's it - night shifts over for another week. Managed to get about 5 hours sleep in the car then another 2 hours when I got home. Feeling a little guilty though - there is a female security guard who takes over for us in the morning at about 6.45am. Now I get there by 6.30pm every night to give her an early finish but she never gets there early in the morning. Last week she was an hour late when my father was working his shift ( an hour!!! ).
Well, this morning I let it get as far as 7.00am ( the time she was due to start although she should be there by 6.45am ) and I thought sod it, I'm off. So I did it, I drove off and left the post empty until she got there. I have not heard anything since but I was well within my rights to go at 7. I do not know if this was positive or not - I did take action and this woman needs to be taught that shift starts are there for a reason but I still don't see it as positive. I just did not want to be a doormat or a walkover like I have been in certain areas and times in my life.
No contact from the girl in my phone but that's no surprise really - I sent a stupid message that could be my undoing, on the other hand she may find it funny ( when she gets back in signal range ). Feeling reasonably positive even after my extreme move this morning - I wonder what that indicates? Was it wrong or right? I tend to think it was both - wrong & right.
Ok, so it's 9.05 pm and I have found out why the security girl did not turn up this morning - she had a stomach problem and went into hospital to be sure. Now I feel reasonably bad - this is certain bad karma. On the other hand, if I had stayed longer this morning I would have ended up doing her shift ( and that was not going to be 'on' at all ). As for feeling positive, I do! The only problem is I know I should be feeling bad for this girl and for leaving early. I have written POS on my left hand again and I have been glancing at it all day - is there something wrong with me for not really caring that I left my post this morning?
I'm working on my website as we speak - I just took a break to finish off this blog today. It's coming on really well and the current page I'm working on is all about Wales. I have a feeling this is going to be my best website to date. All in all I'm feeling pretty good, I know I let myself down this morning but I'm still staying positive. My weeks night shifts are over and tomorrow morning I'm off for a run, tomorrow night however - I may treat myself to a few beers ( it's the weekend after all and I don't have bad practice ).
Going to wrap this up now because I need to give my website all my attention. Feeling good, feeling positive, going to get my life on track! Stay positive.
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