The Girl On My Phone

Well, it's 11.30 am and I'm pretty tired after a night shift - I actually got about 5 hours sleep on the job and an extra 2 hours when I got home at about 8 this morning. Being positive has got a little more difficult after my last post yesterday. This is down to the fact that some dumb bitch drove a van into the side of my car about an hour before I was due to leave for work ( I can almost here you laughing from here! ).


The damage is not severe but there is damage there, front right side of the car. I know the girl and get on with her reasonably well. It looks like when things are starting to get better they take a big hit to test my resolve out. I have no idea of the cost of repair yet but she will be covering it.


So suffice to say, by the time I arrived at work I was pretty low. I knew I had to look for something positive to raise my spirits and stay on track. This is where the girl on the phone comes in to play. I do not want to use her full name at present so I'll be calling her 'harding' for the time being. I met her online about 3 weeks ago and have been in contact with her every day since. It's safe to say she is one of the only positive forces in my life at present and she is one of the reasons I decided to start this journey of improvement.


It wasn't easy - we've both had to slowly feel each other out before we've got closer to each other. Besides, she's a Man United supporter and I'm a Liverpool supporter ( not a great start ). Now we are very comfortable with each other and a relationship is starting to develop. I have no idea what this relationship is yet as we have never met but the humor and comfort between us is very positive, I think she feels that to. I asked her to cheer me up ( because of the car incident ) and she simply replied that she had cut her finger whilst trying to peel an apple at work and nearly cried as it hurt that much ( she ended with a 'lol' to ). This was all it took to make me smile and fill me with positive vibes. We proceeded to message each other in conversation for a few hours and I actually had to stop proceedings just before 11 as it was getting late and I was fast running out of things to say!


I feel this great experience with harding last night was all down to me keeping my head and staying positive when the lady who hit my car showed me what she had done. I realized there was no point in losing my temper and I handled it with dignity and a calm head. The girl on my phone is certainly helping me along with this journey and she doesn't even know it. What will happen next with this girl - I don't know. I would like to meet her but I don't think it would be wise yet, patience may well be the key here. That's all for now, I may add another post before I go to work tonight if I manage to find the time. I am well on this journey now and will remain positive to see if I actually can cure my messed up life in Wales. Cheers for now!